Fr. Dale Matson
“[We are] Always bearing
about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus
might be made manifest in our body. For we who live are always delivered unto
death for Jesus' sake, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in
our mortal flesh.” (2 Corinthians 4:10-11)
I have spoken a couple of
times in the last two years about physical afflictions which appear
unexpectedly. Some have become chronic; some vanish as quickly as they first
appeared.
I am currently using a daily devotional, a
gift from my late mentor in 1995. It sat on the self all this time. It is a
collection of the sayings of St. Padre Pio. He and St. Therese the Little
Flower are examples of what are termed “victim souls”. These individuals
accepted the invitation from Christ to suffer more than others. Mother Teresa
also drank from the cup of suffering to the last drop. Christ has not offered
nor have I sought these afflictions. Some of it I am sure is due to aging and
some are self-induced via lifestyle. Some are for the sake of the Gospel. In a
post on Soundings 2010, I stated “There is definitely an element of spiritual
warfare but the physical suffering is something that I have not come to a full
understanding about.”
And what has God been
saying to me about this lately? “Take this suffering but do not withdraw. Take
this suffering and turn it into compassion for the suffering of others.” It
reminds me of St. Paul’s comment in 2 Corinthians 1:4. “Who comforted us in all
our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble,
by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.”
There is an additional factor
however. At ordination, priests prostrate themselves in submission to God to
demonstrate with their bodies, that they have turned their wills over to God.
Thy will be done. There are obvious things we do to gradually and incrementally
make exceptions to this “all in” devotion and dedication. I think for me it has
been an unwillingness to suffer. At least, it is an unwillingness to suffer
without an explanation or a purpose. Just tell me why I have to suffer Lord. I
think it is the willingness to suffer as an act of unquestioning obedience
toward which God is moving me. I have had some blessed consolations.
‘“…after
all, His Majesty will give you help proportionate to your trials, and so as you
are suffering great trails, you will enjoy great favors, too!” St. Theresa of Avila
A Prayer For Those Who Suffer
Dear Lord I ask that You
keep my heart from becoming discouraged or depressed. Don’t let me withdraw and
be absorbed by self-pity. Guard the measure of faith You have bestowed upon me
and help my spirit grow as my body no longer is capable of repairing
itself. Dull my suffering and pain when
medicines fail. Let me thank You for the
moments where pain is not evident. Help me to focus on the needs of others,
especially those less fortunate. Help me to offer a message of encouragement, a
word of affirmation or simply a smile. Let others put their hands in my wounds
to see I am human. Let me take note of the pleasant spring morning following a
necessary rain. Let me listen more carefully to those around me. Thank You for
those You provide to offer care and support. Let me contribute till I am poured
out. Don’t let me become bitter about those who fail to acknowledge me or
disregard me. Lord, let my decisions be based on faith not fear. As I become
less, may You become more. Let Your joy, hope, love and peace attract others to
You in me. Amen
2 comments:
Your prayer is absolutely beautiful. I just discovered your blog and am enjoying it so much. May the Lord bless you richly for the wisdom He has shown you that you are able to share with others.
Thanks Sheri and blessings to you.
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