Epiphany 4C 2019
Fr. Dale Matson
My homily is based on our
Old Testament Lesson from Jeremiah
4 Now the word of the
Lord came to me, saying,
5 “Before I formed you in
the womb I knew you,
and before you were born
I consecrated you;
I appointed you a prophet
to the nations.” (When does life begin?)
6 Then I said, “Ah, Lord God! Behold, I do not know how to
speak, for I am only a youth.” 7 But the Lord said to me,
“Do not say, ‘I am only a
youth’;
for to all to whom I send
you, you shall go,
and whatever I command
you, you shall speak.
8 Do not be afraid of
them,
for I am with you to
deliver you,
declares the Lord.”
9 Then the Lord put out his hand and touched my mouth. And the
Lord said to me,
“Behold, I have put my
words in your mouth…”
With Abraham
and Noah, the response to God’s call is not met with resistance, while the call
of God to Jeremiah, Moses and Jonah is met with reluctance that may be humility
or less noble reasons. Moses was called by God. “Come, I will send you to
Pharaoh that you may bring my people, the children of Israel, out of Egypt.” 11
But Moses said to God, who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring
the children of Israel out of Egypt?” Was Moses humble or reluctant with this
response?
How
about Jonah? God called him to go Nineveh to witness to the wicked Ninevites
but Jonah was so reluctant to go that he got on a boat going the other way. We
all know the story and in spite of Jonah’s resistance, he miraculously wound up
in Nineveh. Was it that Jonah hated the Ninevites or that he was afraid to
go?
I was raised in a
Southern Baptist family. There was a plaque near the church entrance. Numbers
were inserted into the plaque and changed each week. The title of the plaque
was “Souls Saved This Week”. Although we are Anglicans, I think this sense of
mission should be ingrained in our minds also. Isn’t that what happens when the
Gospel is proclaimed? Souls are saved.
How
many here know a friend or a relative that is not saved? How long have
you known them to be this way? Were they once saved or never saved. Do you love them enough to set your fears and
your ego aside to tell them about Christ? Have you ever given your testimony?
Do you have a testimony? I’m not talking about the prosperity gospel here. I am
not a winner. I am a finisher. When we are saved by Christ we are transformed
from losers to finishers. We were once quitters but the fruit of the Spirit
includes patience, self-control and self-sacrifice. I knew my friend Phil for
over 50 years.
When I met my friend Phil in high
school, I had already been drifting away from God. By the time I graduated from
high school Phil and I had become close friends and I had become estranged from
God.
I moved to Wisconsin and
Phil moved to Texas. By this time both were addicted to cigarettes and alcohol.
Because of God’s grace and mercy, I, like the Prodigal Son returned to the
Father and gradually began to change and heal by the renewing of my mind. I was
taking on the mind of Christ. Like many folks who have friends with similar
addictions, it means that I had to say goodbye to my “so-called” friends at the
neighborhood tavern. So many of them had stories that sounded like the title of
sad country western songs like “Waiting Around to Die”, “He Stopped Loving Her
Today”, “Whiskey Lullaby”, “I’m So Lonesome I Could Cry”. My personal favorite
is By Randy Travis called “Better Class Of Loser”. “You think it's disgraceful
that they drink three-dollar wine but a better class of loser suits me fine.”
Did I
testify to them? No. They were never really interested in me or anyone one
else. When I stopped going to the bar, no one called or stopped over. They only
wanted to remain victims who medicated every night with alcohol and cigarettes.
They were signed up for a life leading to “death on the installment plan”.
Phil was a different
story. We had much in common with a long friendship with many good memories. I
was not just called by God, I was specifically called by God to witness to
Phil. I was reluctant to heed God’s call because I knew it was very possible
that he would never respond to me again. When I did offer my testimony, after
months, he did write me a letter saying he would think about what I had said.
He had even married a devout Roman Catholic. God wanted Phil.
He was one of the most gifted individuals I
have ever met both physically and intellectually. His doctorate was in geology
and before his retirement, his profession was the head of the rock analysis lab
of Chevron Oil. However, he could have been successful at anything he put his
hand to. While he was a scientist evaluating the physical world, he did so with
the eyes and ears of an artist.
I lacked Phil’s native
aptitudes. I didn’t have the stuff he did but his blessings were also a curse. Phil
always had a handicap. He didn’t sense a need for God. Things were easy for
him; too easy. He never had to rely on anyone else. Age and a nearly fatal
motorcycle accident provided an evolving but uncharacteristic humility and a
willingness to listen more carefully. Like Jacob, he walked with a limp. At one
time he had all the answers. Now he was living a life of pain. No matter how
intelligent a person is, if they are not in Christ and Christ in not in them,
they will major in minors and lead a life of self-destruction. Deuteronomy
13:19-20 states “I call heaven and earth to witness against you today, that I
have set before you, life and death, blessing and curse. Therefore, choose
life, that you and your offspring may live, loving the Lord your God, obeying
his voice and holding fast to him, for he is your life and length of days, that
you may dwell in the land that the Lord swore to your fathers, to Abraham, to
Isaac, and to Jacob, to give them.” Do you know someone like my friend Phil?
Are you someone like this? Are you
tired of the same old same old? For those of you who only have Jesus as Savior,
it’s time for Jesus 2.0; Jesus as Lord. Is it any wonder that some don’t seem
to be able to get off the sin/forgiveness cycle?
Is your Christianity
something you share with your friends; your relatives or are you afraid it will
put distance between you and them.
The point of this story about
Phil and me is to urge you to follow through with witnessing to those for whom God
has placed a burden on your heart. I believe that God was involved in preparing
Phil’s heart for Christ for Phil’s whole life. I also believe that Phil was
correctly convinced that his lifelong friend was not diminished by his
relationship to Christ but transcended both a miserable and an ordinary
life because of Christ. Like any good scientist, Phil had 50
years’ worth of evidence for this. He saw the transformative power of God
working in me.
God in His grace can even reach into the heart of the active
unrepentant addict. This is the person Philip knew only so well. Following
my return to Christ, I was baptized. I might add that at this point I was still
addicted to cigarettes and alcohol. God’s call is not initially heavy but the
cumulative effect is a rod of iron. I gradually became aware following my
baptism that there was no turning back. I was now another ambassador of God’s
Kingdom and as an ambassador; it was not fitting for me to be a drunk or a
smoker. At one point in my life, I had such severe indigestion from drinking
that I put baking soda in my wine to avoid the acid stomach. I actually believed the lie that I would die
if I quit drinking. I prayed about this and was delivered from the need to
drink. I was trustworthy again. I had to
pray for two more years to get the desire to quit smoking and when I quit on
January 10th 1983, I never smoked again. I believe there can be
conversion from addiction also.
This was the new man
coming forth. The old man had been drowned in baptism and rose with Christ. I
was putting on the new man Jesus Christ. My language changed too. I no longer
used profanity in every other sentence. I no longer used my Lord’s name to
curse things. How ironic it is that now as a Priest, I use His name to bless people
and things. My friend Phil still used Christ’s name in a way that made me sick
inside. A non-Christian has no idea how painful it is for a Christian to hear
Christ’s name profaned. Do you remind those around you who curse how it hurts
you to hear your Lord’s name dragged through the mud? I remember my late Aunt Louise confronting a
stranger at a bus stop and telling the lady who was cursing not to profane her
Lord’s name. I am proud to this day that she spoke to her about it.
I showed Phil by my life
which is my living testimony that I am a different person yet I am still
legitimate. I am a member of the church of Christ that continues to restore my
soul. Christ purchased it with His death and offered it back to me.
Phil had it all. He was a
handsome blond of northern Italian descent. He was the best athlete in our
large suburban high school and a member of the national honor society. I was
ordinary and not on any athletic teams. Phil did not read music but taught
himself to play the Adagio from Beethoven’s ‘Moonlight Sonata’ on the piano in
a single day.
I believe with all of my
heart that God does truly want all people to be saved. As 1 Timothy 2:4 states,
“God desires all people to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth.
I believe this included Phil and prayed for him for many years of the 50 years
that I knew him. At one time Phil did not need God. I used to wonder What would
happen if I died before Phil became a Christian? Prayers do not have a statute
of limitations. They don’t have a shelf life. God does not forget. As it turned
out, Phil died suddenly and unexpectedly of a heart attack 3 years ago. May he
rest in peace.
What about you and your
friend? What about you and your relative? Has God called you to witness and
pray for them to be saved by Jesus the Christ? Has someone been praying for you
to be saved? No? Don’t you pray for them when they are in trouble or sick or
broke? Well, what about praying for their eternal destiny? Pray and witness.
When you can’t witness to them; pray.
Then pray some more. Enlist others in those prayers. Enlist us now as I
pray a final prayer. When I pause, call out a first name and do it boldly if
you are able.
Dear Lord, we stand in
the gap for our friends and relatives who do not know You and are killing themselves
on the installment plan in this world. Lord we are fearful and ask for
boldness. We know that they are headed to hell and want to head them off. We
love them and ask You to witness to them through the Comforter, God Holy
Spirit. We know that now is the time of salvation and we covenant to continue
to pray for and when possible, witness to those You have placed on our hearts. Dear
Lord I ask that You bring into Your Kingdom those people we now name……Amen.
2 comments:
Father Dale Matson, Thank you for telling me about Phil from Chevron in this blog post; Phil was a dear friend of mine. I just learned of his sudden passing today and in searching for information I found your blog. Truly, reading your comments helped me to better accept this loss. As you say, Phil was a scientist with an artist's eye. I read his forward in your book on the Sierras. He was brilliant. A romantic. Loved being the son of a classical musician. He had an old school appreciation for our world's tremendous beauty. I loved him because he did me the extreme honor of laughing uncontrollably at my dumb jokes...actually one of the biggest compliment one can receive. Thank you again. Peace,
Dave Wiggins
Phil and I were forever telling each other lines from Johnathan Winters albums and laughing each and every time. Pax,
Dale+
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